What do you do when you find that the walls you have been building have crumbled before you?
I have been working on building walls against certain temptations/sin. All it takes is once to let satan get his foot in the door. Then the walls come tumbling down. I know it says in God's Word not to give an inch to the devil. I feel I have done the exact opposite. It makes a guy feel pretty bad when he has sinned against the Lord. Jesus has done nothing but show me love and patience. I can only do what I know best. Repent, turn towards God and start rebuilding the walls.
I yearn so badly to do what is right before the Lord. I'm asking God to make me more sensitive to His Holy Spirit. I want to stay in tune with Him so I can do His Will. I'm pretty much fighting mad at the devil for making me feel so rotten and foolish. That stupid old devil tricked me and now I don't even feel worthy to serve God. It's amazing how cunning and slick that serpent is. He might be on the brink of retardation but every now and then, if you let him, he will get his licks in. I guess what I'm saying is, don't let your guard down. Stand firm, resist him. Sorry to get so personal here. I'm off to rebuild some walls.